Monday, April 5, 2010

Genetics

I get asked ALL the time if this little white haired boy belongs to me. Now, if Cortney and I are out together, they see him and can put it all together. But when I am out with the three boys myself...they don't see where this guy gets his looks from...

It was funny because someone in our neighborhood who knows me saw me at the store with him today and actually said, "Now whose kid is this that your watching?" I was like...hello, he's mine. And if you don't believe me, ask the doctor who I was screaming at while I was in labor with him with no epidural...yeah, I remember too much about his birth story...anyways. It was funny. Now is there a point to all this rambling...? Yes.
Cortney and I have talked a few times about future children. I know Cortney and I cannot go through the whole NICU thing again, and neither can our kids! But I don't feel our family is complete yet either...only time will tell. But we have talked about the possibility of adoption. It's waaaay too early to think about it right now, I know we will cross that bridge later down the road when I have a better situation going on with my current mischevious children... but I just can't help thinking about all this lately when I know if I could have a healthy full term baby, I would actually be wanting to be pregnant right now. I am not baby hungry, definelty not toddler hungry...sometimes I think I just anxious to know what my future holds. Who is missing from this wonderful family? I don't necessarily feel like anyone is missing right now at this moment...its more that I just don't feel it's completely complete...

Only time will tell...lots of prayers and lots of time...and more prayers...and more time...and, well, you get the idea.

3 comments:

beckaboots said...

Just work on making life the best it can be right now :) I know I want a baby soon. I've got the baby fever going on.

the tim gailey home said...

hope i don't come across as insensitive, but i feel like i know what you mean. i just got my babies so not baby hungry obvioulsy, but don't feel complete either. it is very unsettling to not have control of my future concerning my family. definitely not a patient girl here.

Debra said...

Adoption is a great thing. I have never been opposed to adopting over getting pregnant myself. Still, my husband is still in the stage where he wants to have our own genetic kids if we can and then looking at adoption as an alternative.